From AKS on June 25, 2009 at 3:51 am.  

I am right there with Marti..I love my story but I feel I am like a neglectful, even abusive parent to it. I don't let it have the time and attention it needs to grow and flourish. And I don't really know why though I think that my intense family life has alot to do with it...the personalities and demanding relationships blot up all my attention. All family members are away right now and I am alone except for dogs. I find I need (want) less sleep (procrastination is exhausting) and that I am eager to open my story and work. I need help with the subtle, psychological self-management side of the writing life. Is it about self-confidence/performance anxiety? Is it a feminist issue? Am I just weaker than I knew? Holly has a discernible vigor and rigor and energy. It is evident in all her posts. I need to develop that inner strength.